I’d like to delete this post and keep my demons hidden deep within me. I’m not Eminem, but I feel that I need to lose myself, in my writing. I have to own my moments, but I stare at the “me” now, and I see myself still from the eyes of the person I was before. It’s interesting how time changes everything – it can heal wounds or cause them to fester; it can build mountains or tear them down; it can create life or slowly smother, causing death.
With coming into this literary world, I have to delve into my soul and answer the question of who I am. This is not based on some psychoanalysis and daddy-abandonment syndrome. No, this is based on branding. If I don’t know who I am, how can I sell it.
As Eminem said, “Success is my only- option.” Let me explain.
I won’t go into detail about my life. This is no sob story, and I am not lying on a couch spurting off details that no one needs to know. I’m stubborn, proud and sometimes a bitch; but on the flip side, I’m loyal, empathetic and helpful. I am my own contradiction: a person that finds beauty in the forgotten; where black is really a lovely color and if I could, my hair would be blue and I’d forever dress in crystals and black leather. I’d probably even have wings tattooed on my back if I could. Yet, that is only part of me – the artistic side.
Then, there is the frightened little girl, running in place, seeking affirmation, and always a kind word. Easily hurt, holding on to the purported shortcomings.
And then, my dominate personality, of being a go-getter; lending a helping hand to anyone who needs it. I’ll give the shirt off my back and my last dollar to help someone in need (maybe because I know what it means to go without). The further I rise, the more I look back to try to pull someone else up with me.
In closing, I’m broken and bruise, whole and complete; a dichotomy.
So, who am I? And how do I market me. After reading this, I’m sure you’ll probably think I’m a little off (but then aren’t all writers – our ideas have to come from somewhere). So what do you think? What is my best marketing strategy?